Losing Life

Sitting in filth.
Clenched fists, pounding head.
No desires but for anything.
Lingering memories of smiles.
Not knowing which moods rule.
Starving soul, bleeding.
A mental cancer, spiritual ulcer;
Wondering why I won't beg.
Angry rage said, 'Oh well.'
Like shrugging off hell.
Like losing my teeth;
Biting off nothing in life.

Gray on gray, just there.
Butt after butt, snubbed out.
A building never constructed.
Just wind torn and fading.
Emotions might cry.
From end to end a desert.
Cold bones, flaking flesh;
A shell lying naked fiddles.
And twiddling life away.
There isn't life anyway.
Like losing my teeth.
Biting off nothing in life.

Knowledge useless and wasted;
A plastering of God faded.
Transparent walls like glass.
A sunset without a sky,
Without absolute reason;
There are no ends.
And there's nothing to offer.
Can't break walls with wishes.
Stagnant skills mush.
Mindless can not learn.
Like losing my teeth.
Biting off nothing in life.