Some Things

Some things I don't say,
Some things I don't do,
Some things I don't realize,
When you're being you.
But when you're not there,
And it's just me on my own,
I feel something's wrong
I feel so alone.

Some things I think,
Some things I feel,
I look for you,
And some things are real.
I await your return,
I see you not there,
But then there you are,
And things seem so clear.

For there is no being,
No thing so quite you,
As you are my love,
Ne'er before so true.
And when you're not there,
I feel wholly alone,
So almost not there,
Longing for home.

I await you're return,
For today I shall say,
Regardless of moods,
I love you today.
No matter the reason
No matter the rhyme,
There is no other,
I will love for all time.

I hate moving

Does anyone really enjoy moving? I'm sure some people do. But not me.

I felt the need to abandon my Myspace affiliations. I never really wanted to sign up with a service like Myspace and when I realized that the only reason I was using it in the first place was for my blog I decided to just move it back here, where I used to have my first blog years ago. But, there's that.

I'm still working on the layout and presentation. The current look is just a template and I'd like to personalize it soon. We'll see. Please keep checking back! ;D

Over the horizon

I am finding myself to be far vaster than I originally thought. I believe if I had the time I would care to experience everything in existence. I am happy with the things I have come to trust and depend on. I am finding so much pleasure in things I never knew of or narrowly avoided due to ignorance. My mind is wide open.

I am liberating my body and soul. I am being true to my nature and embracing my life.

Like Fine Wine

Days go by and still I think of you.
Days when I couldn't live my life without you.

Best year of my life. The love, the support, the new people, my family, my faith, my job, my way of life... I will cherish my 33rd year above all others to date.

If you only knew the person I am, the person I've become, and the person I'll be...

My future is wide open

<3 G

Not Ever

Deafening prayers carrying lonely desires,
Terrified children who must master their fire,
Complacent governors who's lies mire,
And the body is never done.

Beginners dressed like endings,
And never wild old crying child,
Careless fools steal and loveless dupes feels,
With callous endings never done.

Scattered tribes of old,
Alike tears running from cold,
Selfish intention grows like mold,
And the heart is never done.

Pieces clinging limply, prying, scratching,
Trying not to drown, afloat in pain swimming,
Bringing with it constant waning.
And the mind is never done.

Efforts old and efforts new,
Paling in comparison to what gods do,
Yet even while it closes on you,
Your existence is never done.

When 2’s should be 3’s

It can't all be poetry and quotes everyday! This is the real world people!

So, just a note on programming in PHP, although this tip really carries over into programming in any kind of scripting language... or any type of logic solving really. But in this context specifically, I'm referring to an issue I just resolved in my PHP for an undisclosed website.

Ultimately, put simply, when you need 2's to be 3's, you should make sure that all your 2's are 3's. In every file and every logic structure. Isn't it silly how if this basic rule of thumb gets left behind it can ruin your whole day?

But, on a positive note, what I thought might take me all day to fix only took me ten minutes. Nine minutes and fifty seconds to find the problem and ten seconds to make the change and save the file. Brilliant!

I am a PHP Guru!

Denial Song

Pushed flat on my face,
Life denies me happiness.
Like a failed race
Ignoring pains grandness.

Singing denial's prelude
Running from my own hate,
Never feeling so crude
Pain's grating song won't abate.

Fear's fleeing fright
A mental parade of anguish,
Buried atop hope's light
Death the only true wish.